I told my brother that I was gonna declare Econ major.  I had to take bus all the way to IVy Rd.  Ok, it's not far but it's just out of my way and I've never thought of going there..  So to me, it's like declaring war- something so special..

 

Errr.. what? You used 3 lines just to say "I will be an Econ major" ?  Crap..

 

I feel bloated.  I mean physically bloated because of the Irretible Bowel Syndrom, not because I feel fat.  I heard that the medicine I have does not have any side effects, but I mean who knows.  So, I have been skipping it.  Everything in this world has its cause and effect.  Even though a 'Z' doesn't stand next to an 'A', I can get to the 'Z' by walking down from 'A' to 'B' to 'C'... to 'Z'. 

 

I'm going to 'P'.   

I was feeling down for quite a few days until I had a small afternoon chat with some students and deans this afternoon.  It's not quite true that I have nothing else to do on grounds.  There are still so man issues left unattended that I should actually work on.  Or sometimes, when I think people are ignorant about something, it is actually just that they are not aware of it.  They don't even realize that such problem exists; it's not simply because they don't care.  The 2 ladies from the Women Center, and probably a good load of other people, didn't know that financial aid at UVA is only for American citizens.  Dean Muth said, " But there is nobody, esp the international students, fighting for it."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is the message on a poster (which has been altered a little bit at the end) I bought in 2003 and it has always been pinned up in my room ever since.  Often I neglect this message, living my life in temptations, frustrations and anger.  From last night until a while ago, my mind had been so agitated that I had no control over my mind and consciousness.  I lived in the past, unneccesarily immerged myself in depression and disappointment.

 

Now that I remind myself again of the final analysis, I feel my mind has been cleared up tremendously.  It's really about me and the priniciples, not them.

 

Thanks to P'Or whose blog has inspired me to take a little pause to think about the Final Analysis.  Now that the world seems brighter, I can start on my readings for the 2pm class.  Money and banking again.  It's between me and the Prof!

 

Prof, start talking about things that I will be able to understand!

 

 

 

I realize that as I grow up, I have to face more and more bitterness in life.  It's not about being pessimistic but, seriously, I am so demoralized today.  It's been said that there's no fairness in love and war.  In fact, fairness is just a word with no real existence, even in court.  But that's how things go.  I'm ashamed of them, as well as of myself for letting them committing the unjusticed actions and I could do nothing but to go with the flow, and most probably try to break away from them in the future.

 

I'm no angel, but what I discovered today just digusted me.  It's sad because it seems like I'm the only one who is put off and feels disgusted by the selfishness and short-sightedness of these people.  Others probably think that it's some kinda funny thing to do and it doesn't really matter if they are going to mess something up.  But now I seriously don't wanna mingle with those people anymore now that I know who they really are.  Shame on you!

 

Anyway,smile.

I discovered another thing today.  It's not considered a discovery to most people in the world, or at least in America, but it clarifies my understanding about certain facts related to Christianity. 

 

Madonna is a Roman Catholic title of Virgin Mary, the Mother of Jesus.  It is also synonymous to the Mother of God.

 

Yeah, that's it.  Haha..

I hate CoMM 180.  I screwed my Excel test which I thought should be the easiest test in my college life.  I also screwed up my midterm.  I can't get an A for this class now.  Suck.  Let's go eat!  Gosh! I hate it!  I hate my stupid life.

I stayed at Jessi's house for 2 days having a marvellous time.  Her family is so lovingly warm; grandparents cook for the children and grandchildren, and of course, us grandchild's friends.  It brings back the Asian family feeling when all have dinner together.

 

Played pool and cooked at her house.  Audrey and and sis came over to try my Thai food, too.  Fun.  And we went shopping.. Girl thing and a reason to spend money.