I just knew my primary school has a website!!  you may not be as excited as I am because I know my school is not a tech-savvy type of school.  We are like the cute type of schools where children love to do all those cultural things.  Actually we were pretty good in math, too.  A teacher who brought me to many math competitions is still there as a math department chair.  It's been more than ten years since I first attended the school.  One of the teachers who taught my sister, my brother and me has already passed away.  I think she told me she had been with this school for 30 years.. and of course, she is well loved by all the kids.  Awwww.. so sweet... thinking about primary school life when you only worry about minute things, and most things just go fine.  We were scared of a swing in the playground because people kept passing on this ghost story associated with the swing.  Stories mutate over time.  If I go back to school now, I may find a lot of new stories among my juniors.  Lovely.

 

Sai Nam Thip School:

 

ปรัชญา

สุวิชาโน ภะวัง โหติ

ผู้รู้ดีเป็นผู้เจริญ

 

คำขวัญ

ความรู้คู่คุณธรรม นำประโยชน์สู่สังคม

 

สีประจำโรงเรียน

สีฟ้าขาว

ฟ้า หมายถึง ความสงบ สุขุม รอบคอบ

ขาว หมายถึง สะอาด บริสุทธิ์

 

When I read the meaning of my school colors, I felt calmness just like when I stand on a quite beach having a cool breeze running though me.  Last night I was disappointed and felt much despair but now things are more settled.  I realize maybe it is that when I was small, my school taught me only priniciples of Peace, Prudence and Purity.  It's totally not what I am "obsessed" with right now.  I was amazed to raelize that when I was a little kid, those are the principles taught to me which are so different from what I'm learning from the society I'm in right now.  I think it's absolutely true when they say children are like a blank sheet of paper.  As thy grow up, that sheet gets painted and written on.  Some blank sheets may turn into a colored paper, and it varies how much one can see white spots on those very same sheets of paper.  But do I want to go back to that quiet and serene lifestyle like that?  I'm not sure if I can do that even if I want to.  My career path is towards the banking craps and evryone knows banking, investment banking to be exact, definitely has nothing to do with peace and purity.  It's a competition revolving around the theory of evolution: the strongs survive and the weaks die.  That's the real world I'm heading to.

I'm back after a longggg pause.  Feeling kinda down... I just got a grade for my math probability class.. ok I actually have no rights to complain because I couldn't do it anyway, but it's like with all the help from my friends, I should have gotten something better.  Especially because Thip has helped me a lot in this class, he has been even more eager to know the grade than I have.. and it turned out.. not as he has expected.  I just flung the final.. god damn it.  Sometimes really, I think what can I do academically?  When I think about my psychology class, I kinda do well on papers but I suck at multiple-choice tests.. so eventually I would be getting some shit for this class, as usual.

 

Since when have I been so aggressive and speak such words?  This is bad, too.  Oh god, really, what good do I have.. Ok, this saddens me.  I didn't start writing my blog today with sadness.  It was merely some kinda disappointment.  But now I just find nothing happy about life.. ok actually there are some good things about life, but.. but what?  Goddddd.. I don't need to think about these craps...

 

Anyway, I just went to TS web board and found this cute little logic: